Prespective

Wow it feels like forever since i have written. But here it goes for that last couple of weeks I have found myself in a funk. Not knowing exactly how to maneuver myself away from it. Feeling a bit overwhelmed with my surroundings. And boggled down by my very own thoughts and concerns. Exhausted and drained.

Well i prayed, prayed for God to show me what in the world was up? What do i need to work on, what do I need to change? My day went on still no answer and finally I get to the line to wait to pick up my precious daughter.whom am very thankful for. I began to to read and study the word and reading a book.And then it hit me it is my attitude it was waaaaayyyyy off. I realized that I had some how let life get in the way of God's truth. Am blessed that HE is so faithful to answer my prayers. I lacked in my attitude of gratitude.

See when you let disappointments and complaints arise it gives birth to more negativity. and in return you are left feeling empty, tired, frustrated and bitter.
When you focus on the positive of life the blessings; you open the door of you heart to see things in a new perspective. A new refreshing light. Yes I will have laundry and dinner to cook. But am grateful to have a family, yes i might be a bit tired. But i can do all things through Christ who gives me strength.

I was only seeing my long to do list. the nonsense of circumstances clouding the overall picture. I am blessed. I am grateful for those who love me . For the gift of motherhood, for a spouse who loves and cares for me. For sisters who hear me. For my vitamin D( nickname of a BFF). Most of all for the grace that God so lovely pours over me each and everyday. I leave you with this verse

Isaiah 40:31 (NIV)
but those who hope in the Lord will renew their strength. The will soar on wings like eagles; they will run and not grow weary, they will walk and not be faint.



Father God, I thank you for all that you are in my life and for the blessing and teaching you bestow on me and this family. I pray that you would overflow my heart with your love and presence and that you would protect me from my own careless thoughts help me to stand on your truth and only on that truth. In Jesus merciful name I pray.

AHHHHHH!!!

Summer time is here and I must find things to do. Things that will occupy my children's day.Pressure to make sure this is a GREAT SUMMER. I take deep breath's frequently hoping that I can some how exhale all the frustrations that I now have pent up inside of my head and heart. I can feel the throbbing in my temples from the constant repeating of DON'T HIT YOUR SISTER. To the WOULD YOU PLEASE STAY STILL. I am realizing and learning that I have choices to make.Choices that will define how I react to my day in a different way. I have always tried to teach my children that life is about making choices. But I do not believe that I was being a good example of that today. Today I made choices and reacted in ways that might I been less then useful. I realized that I to needed to take full responsibility for the choice I made on how I reacted to the situation of two children under the age of 6. That are fighting, arguing, and just plain nonsense. I have more than enough excuses for why my attitude today was lets say unreasonable. But I also knew that I could not be a hypocrite and let my current circumstances get me a go free pass. Yes today, I realized that I needed to step up my game and make a better choice one that was useful choice one of great importance today . I forgave myself instead of pitying myself today I took full responsibility for my actions. Realizing that I don't need it to be a great summer. But a summer full of love, and lessons in the simple things of life appreciating what is right in front of you and not what could be. Jesus I pray for wisdom in being a good example of self control and positive reactions. Amen

Graduating!!!

Ahh, Could it be that a preschool graduation would have such power over me. As I gazed upon my 5 year old daughter standing in her blue cap and gown. I got very emotional; tears rolling down my face as I realized that my baby was no longer a baby; but on a new journey into a school grade child. I must say I was not ready to feel what I was feeling. This new chapter in our lives. Fun and at the same time scary. Knowing that she is on a new adventure of each day becoming more and more who she is meant to be. I pray that my husband and I will teach her in the best way possible, support her no matter what, and guide through the craziness of life. She graduates to a new stage of life and right by her side I stand. Wondering how her school years will be. What will be her favorite subject. Yes, I know it is only Kindergraden but to me her Mother it is a whole new world. May God grant my husband and I the wisdom we shall need. And bless her every step that she takes. I feel like I gratuated today to for I know now that I can not keep to myself but that my baby girl is growing up and each moment is more precious then the last.